Welcome to my little corner of the universe. This blog is pretty much my place to ramble, empty the contents of my overthinking brain, and work on myself. I am horribly inappropriate at times and curse a lot. A LOT.
I have been trying to write this all night. I keep trying to explain the way I got to this truth/thought and I get lost in my own words. And then I realized I don’t need a setup or explain how I got here.
This morning in therapy, I told Ann (my therapist) that I want to move forward. I feel like I am feeling better and starting to handle my emotions yet I am still in the same place. I’m not moving. I keep waiting for a clear sign telling me I am ready to move on and the truth is, there isn’t going to be one. I just have to do it.
So, I told Ann that I was thinking about starting to read and work through my Resume for Dummies book. This may not sound like much but it is a BIG step for me. Ann was quite pleased with it and said that she was impressed that I was able to talk about it without being panicked or anxious (which is a first). No pressure to have a finished resume or apply for anything, just reading the book was enough for now.
I am ready to start my life. I am tired of only seeing Pete on weekends. I want to be with him all the time and I want to start a family.
Reading a book about resumes may seem like an insignificant thing to some but it is a big step in the right direction for me.